Why I Took a Blogging Break

Hi! I am writing again! Most of you are probably wondering why such a simple statement is met with so much excitement since there are clearly other, more exciting things in life; Like hitting your goal weight or paying off your student loans, or purchasing your first car. However, for me, this moment of finger to keyboard synergy emits a very exciting feeling in me. Truth is, I really enjoy writing, but I am very new to blogging so going into it with no concrete plan became really overwhelming for me. One of the things I struggled with that I did not anticipate being so hard was planning outfits or visuals in advance that would go along with the content I intended to post. I underestimated how hard this would be and how much strategizing goes into it, so bravo to all bloggers and content creators out there. Thank goodness I have a few friends who support me and would offer to assist because boy, it is work!

Although visual content creation was a slight part of my mini hiatus from blogging, the real question still stands..Why have I stopped writing? After finally finding and taking the time to write this post, I discovered the reason why I have been neglecting such a valued portion of my life so much recently. It was the realization that I wasn’t ready for it. I was not ready to be expressive nor make my inner thoughts so permanent and finite through inked scribbles on a paper. I also had worries, and my thoughts would replay the same questions over and over- “Is my writing good enough?” “Is it interesting enough?” “Can people relate?” “Will people even read?” All of those questions sucked the fun right out of something that was meant to create a safe space for me, a place that I can unwind and be myself. It started to feel unnatural. I was filled to the brim with excuses and I had allowed my anxieties to overcome me.

When you find yourself in a state of confusion or lost and unsure of why your even doing the things your doing (especially if it’s things you love and have interest in), the best thing you can do is to make a game plan to figure out what the hell is going on in your life. So after listening to my favorite inspirational Youtuber’s and Podcaster’s, and reorganizing my planner, I made my way over to the finest cafe in Brooklyn known as The Freehold.  It’s perfect ambiance and chic atmosphere was just the setting I needed to clear my mind and regain my focus.

So here I am, writing again. Not because I’ve figure out my life or what exactly I want to do with this blog, but because I am understanding that it’s also important to take you all along on this journey of me figuring this shit out. So moving on, I will share more. And I will document. And I will write.

Till next time.

xo Kubu